From the time I was little I always knew I wanted to be a stay at home mom. It wasn't until I finally became one that these strange feelings began to emerge...... Guilt, fear, worry. Here I am doing what I enjoy but yet I feel bad about it. I feel guilty that I don't bring any monetary income to our family. I fear what could happen if anything ever happened to my husband. I worry about how I would provide for my family if something did happen to Brian.
I have always been a planner, so I feel lost not knowin what the plan is if something crazy should happen to our family. So lately I have been trying to think of alternative plans. Plans where I can stay home and still make a contribution to our family income. I started this morning so at this point I don't have many ideas. But would love your input should you come across this blog.
For now I will enjoy my time with my son, watching him grow day by day.......
First off: TOTALLY normal! Imagine the thoughts you'd have if your husband say, deployed four or five months a year, for example! Make contingency plans, but absolutely don't obsess! You have a God, a family, and a church who will all do everything they can to help in the event of an event! About the money... My sister sells Pampered Chef. There are lots of things like that: Mary Kay, Tastefully Simple, Party Light. But again, don't obsess! Do what you have to, and what you want to, but don't put undue stress on yourself. Then you can't be the amazing wife and mom you've been up to now! (I think the counseling I've been going to lately has been more help to the people around me than I anticipated!) :)
ReplyDeleteVery good advice!! Thanks :) Speaking of counseling Brian and I talked last night and that is probably one of the things I would consider doing, going back to school for a masters in social work or psychology.
ReplyDeleteI already think you'd be good at it!!
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